waiting

waiting
searching
crying
trying

so hard but I know in my Spirit it is right and real

so hard
trying
wanting
really wanting
no other choice this time
have to face this finally

the refining process can be so lonely

crazy how we don't even know our own hearts

only the creator can finish this
only the maker can make this right
only the healer can reach this depth

will it hurt?
yes

eyes closed

will it be done?
not completely

eyes open

will I be changed?
forever

eyes clothed

will I finally be free?
eternally

medicate... don't want to medicate any more
don't want to be her any more

shedding
shedding the old crap
shedding the old self
shedding all the hate
shedding all the lies
shedding all that was
letting go of unforgiveness and bitterness
letting go of all that was for all of Him

time to be real
have to be real
can't hide from yourself
can't hide yourself from the ones you love

letting anger go

Clinging to HIM

LOVE... L-O-V-E... LoVe... lOvE... LOVE